Let Go

Let go. 

Let go of every form of tension in your body. 

Every insecurity. 
Every let down. 
Every worry. 
Every preconceived idea of who you should be. 
Every expectation projected upon you. 
Every self-imposed expectation. 
Every idea of what your identity should be. 

Let go of stiff body language, lack of eye contact, lack of love, and lack of compassion. 

Just let. it. all. GO. 

It can take time, it can take practice to let things go. But at some point, you just have to make the leap, and let all of that GO. 

I went dancing with some friends Friday night and noticed I was feeling tense. I was over-thinking things, wondering, 

        How do I look? 
        How should I be dancing? 
        Is there somewhere I can put my bag, this feels so uncomfortable to dance         with?
        Is it going to be easy to keep the group together? 

SO MANY THINGS were running through my head as the opener played. And then the artist we were there to see came on stage, and I slowly just started dancing more and more and started feeling more comfortable. And finally, I just threw my hands up in the air and danced however I wanted. 

I wasn't looking at anyone else, wasn't dancing for anyone else, or wondering what people thought of me. 

I just did what felt right for me. 

Dancing has never been so amazing. I haven't felt that good in so long. 

I let it all go. 

This is how I want to live. walk. breathe. interact. love. 

This is how I will carry myself. 

Free, 
open, and 
okay with who I am. 

Heart

There's a comfort for me that lies within the undefined, 

        the unfolding, the abrupt. 

I find sanctuary in the unknown, 

        the risky, 

          the bold, 

             the terrifying, 

                the passion. 

I love the thrill of stepping into territories that make my heart feel, open, and rage. 

These spaces help me grow, let me live, and let me radiate. But they are vulnerable. 

Extremely vulnerable. And sometimes isolating and lonely. These situations unveil my heart, my soul, my fears, my strengths, my insecurities, my love -- whether I'm ready for it or not. Everything is out there and on the table. 

However, every time I step into these realms, I am first broken down and then... I leave more confident, more open, more secure with uncertainty, more comfortable, and more keen on finding new uncharted spaces, places, people, and ideas. 

 

It's so raw, and it's so real, but it makes me feel more alive than ever.

My life occurs in these intense cycles. Each one beginning with a huge shift; a new place, a new lifestyle, and a new set of faces. 

At first it felt jarring. It would shock my system. Make me numb. 

But now it's something I look forward to, and no longer fear. 

I crave this process, 

this way of being. 

This way of continually opening my heart with the world. 

Cyclical

I believe in cyclical motion; the power of putting actions, emotions, and vibes out into the world and then receiving something directly, or indirectly, in return. There is such beauty in giving without the intent of having something given back to you, but when things come back your way it feels incredible. The more you give, the more good vibes you put into the world, and the better you make others feel. Gradually, and overtime, I feel like the good vibes and all of the giving that a person has done accumulates and it seems like suddenly the world starts returning things back to you -- things just feel like they fall into place and just happen. 

Cyclical motion can occur in varying time spans, with different people, and in different settings, but the more I observe life and the way things unfold -- the more cyclical and harmonious things feels.